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Blossoming

I love the idea of being well-read, although I do not consider myself “there yet.”  So, I do not know a great deal about the writer Anais Nin.  I came across a quote of hers that speaks to me today and I must share:”And the time came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” 

Part of my over-intense, highly idealistic personality is making the most of everything moment, resource, every breath.  Lately, I have struggled with the conflict between who I am and what I am not; all the small things that drain my energy, my spirit, and my time.  I have looked around me and seen how much I judge my value by the actions, choices, or even judgments, of other people  (e.g. if I cannot affect change for a loved one, I have failed; and, while I am busy failing, I let go of goals or aspects of myself that would be treasured components of “me” if I let them). 

So again, I am at a crossroads.  I have so much I want to wash away so I have the room to feel and be and experience the life I hunger for.  And, I cannot afford to allow fear of failure or the unknown to cloud my perception of who I am.  I can no longer afford not to take this risk!     I am taking on fitness, health, love, relaxation, proper sleep habits, and exploring some things I have always wanted to learn.  I am going to take some time and have some fun.  Let the games begin. 

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” (2 Tim. 1:6–7.)

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About dragonflywingz

Christian, wife, mom of seven amazing teens and kiddles, home educator, homemaker, artist, college student, romantic, dreamer. I love for poetry, music, art, fashion and everything that makes life beautiful profoundly-(sigh!)

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